This is the prime of life
Now in the abyss of adulthood
You inspired me to take notice of the overlooked miracles that happen every day
But alone I'm just apathetic
A diamond is just a stone and a dead animal is just dead on the side of the road

I don't care if you can't recognize my integrity
I made the right decisions
And I'm grateful for my misery
You could say I've gotten over things
I fired my therapist
So deeply unsatisfied that I can't even feel the pain of it

Too dark for the Christian girls and too Christian for secular dating
Too fucked up in principle to create healthy emotional connections
Celibate by default
I used to have imaginary girlfriends and celebrity crushes that drove me to self harm
And now it's not much different, maybe just a little more helpless

You really fucked me up
I let it happen
So fucking lonely and I still want everyone to leave me the fuck alone
Your life goes on in my absence and you don't think of me

Just trying to preserve my humanity
You don't have to guilt trip my for being unhappy
Tolerate me, at least
Call me immature
Call me a fucking creep
But this is my voice and I'm not ashamed of these words
Take a sad song and make it miserable because everyone loves a fucking love song

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You can read it in my face I'm so far gone
My mouth is not for kissing it's for shutting up
My face is not for make-up it's already fake enough
My arms are not for holding they're for cutting up
My eyes are not for seeing they reveal my nature
My fingers, they're your fingers we can touch each other
My mind is shutting out those memories
Forgetting things that I don't want to remember