false alarm
trick myself into thinking there was something meaningful here
some kind of spiritual epiphany (awakening)
i'm in denial that there's something other than me that i'm obsessed with

i can't tell if the body is asleep or not
my brain is sucked back in a fever dream
i got something evil in me that's gonna be gone by the time you hear this recording
spun out of control tonight but i'm unable to move
i'm falling in love with something

besides me there's a tv screen capturing my memories i don't believe in anything beyond
(there's nothing on the other side)
pull the trigger if you're happy clap your hands fuck off

demons running around i can't catch em scheming
conniving motherfuckers
stop asking me to save your life i can't forgive everyone for every fucking thing

what if you're not real, God?
what if we just made up the whole fucking thing?
what if we're doomed in a bottomless fucking infinity?

i'm so tired
don't make me do your work anymore
at least tell me what the fuck you're doing
at least give me a wife so i don't have to do this alone

drop me off at the next exit to hell i gotta see it
make me a slave to keep as my property
it's all fucking meaningless under the sun
fuck that prostitute if you gotta i don't blame the monster life is fucking hard

wisdom comes to those who wait
patience is a virtue
bask in this divinity i've got enough to share
the end of the world is coming
don't act so fucking melancholy
i got your back
take me to your leader if you got one otherwise you can follow me
i know a place, the secret entrance is in my body
fucking kill me and find the key inside

milk and honey, milk and honey
my blood runs with milk and honey
tastes good don't it
do you have enough pearls to pay for safe travel?
don't worry if you don't you can take a few of mine

i've been saving up for the rapture
this disguise is only temporary
give these lashes to my enemies first
it'll sting at first but that's just cause the healing hurts like alcohol or salt on a wound

i'm not finished yet
i gotta record this ambience don't doubt this experience, he's here in it